It's raining. It's pouring. The old man is snoring. It's been raining like crazy out here. I'm so not used to it. I also hate driving in the rain so that has sucked as well.
I finally started work! It's been good so far, not my favorite thing. But I need the money. I need it bad so I've been sucking it up. I have to pay my bills and get my own place. I'm working customer service for a security systems place. So not bad so far. We're in training still so we haven't hit the floor yet. We've also taken some calls and dealt with them. I like the people I'm training with so that's good. I just hope we all work together. I also need to find a second job so I can get ahead.
I miss Memphis. It's so hard without him. I can't wait for him to come out here. Once I have my own place and save some money, he'll get to come out here so I'm glad!
* Colah
I know I talked about this on my blog but I just wanted to write it out here..
I miss my puppy.. Well she is almost 5 years old now but I've always called her my puppy. We decided it would be best to find her a new home.
We weren't supposed to have pets here but I brought Oreo home anyway. My mom has always given me shit for it.. And over the years we've all started to spend less and less time with her. I don't think that's right. She is a very healthy dog, up to date on her shots, roof over her head, very friendly & lovable but she just couldn't be here anymore.
I wanted to find a family that would pay a lot of attention to her and give her a lot of love. We found that family and she is there now. I'm just so sad about it.
I was around when her mom was pregnant. I helped deliver the ten puppies. I helped bottle feed the puppies the whole time. I picked her out (well she picked me out) and I've had her forever. Her whole life.
And I just feel horrible. I know I made the right choice with finding a great family for her.. But it still hurts. I keep thinking that I'll hear her bark and run up to the door when I come in. And when I go out to smoke, I sit with her and talk to her. I talked to her everytime I pulled my car into the driveway.
I just feel so sad :(
I love you Oreo. I'll miss you & I'll never forget you.
~ Nicolah
I'm going to be badly sick or something. My throat is killing me & I can't stop coughing. Slight fever also. I was feeling better too so I thought I was getting over it but I guess not.
We went Christmas shopping today. I didn't buy much of anything. Actually all I bought was Starbucks and Jamba lol. My mom did all the major shopping. I need to actually buy stuff lol. I haven't really gotten anyone anything. I don't even know what to get anyone.
Oh, so they decided to get rid of all sport teams in this high school district starting next year. All athletic teams are canceled in the East Side High School district. Isn't that crazy? So everyone is planning on transferring out. My mom & dad are planning on having my brother go to a different school in a different district also. 40 teams will be gone (23 boys and 17 girls) and 45 teachers will be let go due to budget. 2 million dollars.
My brother has been in a tournament this week. They've won 2 games. And Friday night is the championship game. It's been expensive to go.. A guy hit on me this last game. It was funny. I was just like "um I'm married" lmfao.
I need sleep. Boo. It's so cold in this house.
~ Nicolah
I just wanted to make sure this works =)
Unfortunately, I can't make up my mind. I went back to posting on livejournal. =P
But I'll keep this for reading your entries if that's ok.
Does anybody come on here anymore?? Haha.
So my best friend of 10 years has pretty much cut off contact with me. Ive tried talking to her, sending her messages, and I get no reply, finally I got one today she told me to call her at 5 when she got out of work, So I waited all day, waited until 5:05 JUST IN CASE and called, no answer. So I waited about 15 minutes called again, no answer. So I left a voice mail and just let her know it was me (I was calling from a # she doesn't know, but she knows my area code here because she lived here and doesn't know ANYONE else in this town so it HAS to be me) And still didn't answer, so yeah left her a message and I'm just sitting here waiting for her call, Is that pathetic? I was talking with one of my friends about this today who has also lost contact with her. Who also sent her this email today
"Hey *************** I really don't get what your issue is? I have been trying to get a hold of you and you just keep ignoring me. i miss ya and everything... and i know that i am pregnant but i am still the same ol kara. it'd be nice to have you in my life still. its like ever since you found out you have completely just forgot about me and i know i can't go out and party or whatever, but please please pleassse just keep in touch... i see you have been going through some stuff not sure what... but if you ever need to talk i am still here for you, no matter what. i don't know.. write me back or text.. something. later."
I don't get it.
Why do I do this to myself.
Self: You are stupid.
So I hope I stick with this, I need somewhere secret I can go and vent about my life and its ups & downs.
xoxo kadance
HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!
Well...Dave had a long weekend, which was great. We had a great time together. But he is such a cruel ass. Last night, we kept hearing a tapping noise, and so he kept hitting shit to see what was making it, and finally, we found out that the shutters were making the noise, and he went to see if the windows were open, and he usually keeps them all locked, and 3 all of them were unlocked, and the weird thing is, the 3rd window was soaking wet on the inside, and the other two were completely dry. Afterwards, he kept looking around and said it was weird in the room, and that he thought there was a ghost in the room. He was freaking me out - and then we went over to the one curtain and said, "Did you write this? Dana, why would you ruin the curtain? These are expensive." I told him there wasn't anything written on there, and that he was just fucking with me. He said it read "Beware." I started freaking out more, and finally he threw the scary snowman at me, and I screamed. He was faking everything, except the windows thing. That part was weird.
Dave wants to go to Virgina for a weekend...which would be nice. Just to get away from everyone and just relax - which I think is great. It'd be so much fun. I love him so much. I have an appointment with my doctor to get put back on anti - depressants. Yesss. Only thing is, Dave wants me to stay off them. I'm not too different when I don't take them - but I get little bouts of sadness..and Idk, it's different. I have more energy, and I'm more upbeat, I guess. Anyway...I'm a little tired. Gonna grab a shower in a few.
♥ Danalee
